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BEING IN TWENTIES - SOMETHING



It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that
there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not
like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or
two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends
that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people
you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the
most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they
are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you
would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you
are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find
yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you
have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to
your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are
insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and
scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling
on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting
further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you
are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love
someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing
this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and
random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an
idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and
questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics
because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money,
the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race
would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We
are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can
to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something
friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their
state of confusion...

We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

FATE DETERMINES WHO COMES INTO OUR LIVES.....HEART DETERMINES WHO STAYS